I'm trying to be as ignorant as I can towards certain issues.
Pretending not to know at times is certainly the best solution.
At least for now...
But how long can I protect and be protected?
Guess I can only let Time decide how long it would be...
I've not enough energy for every little thing...
I WANT MY LIFE! All I can do now is 忍, 忍 and 忍!
Reminiscing stops at |2:42:00 pm|
I'm supposed to be extracting my wisdom tooth today... I've thought about it for some time and finally made up my mind. However, yesterday, my managers asked me to postpone my appointment. Haiz... Now, I dunno when I should do it... Hmmmm...
Yesterday, I decided to buy Chee Cheong Fun for breakfast. It's been a while since I had it. When I was walking to HFT2, suddenly, I heard 'MEOW'! I got a shock! It was stupid RK! -.- While walking, he said he wanna exchange my breakfast with his McDonald's because he wanna try something different. So, I agreed. My Chee Cheong Fun was exchanged for 2 sets of McDonald's breakfast! Haha... 赚到 leh!
When I reached office, I was surprised that was breakfast for me! Meifang made breakfast for us again! I gave Henry one set of the McDonald's breakfast and had the other one.
There was an event that I was required to attend. Frankly speaking, I wasn't interested in attending. So, I dig out some stuff to do until it was time for the event. Halfway through, I realised that I really have not done something! Quickly, I had to finish them because I'm on leave today. I almost went mad when the label printer wasn't working.
After finally settling all the required paperwork for today, I quickly packed up. I had to leave before the event end. Before leaving, I had to inform Sulaimi about some changes on Friday. I was very kan qiong when I'm explaining. I totally ignored Ryan when he came to disturb me.
When I was taking the lift, I saw Gab! "Pretend you didn't see me, ok?" I told him. "I'm supposed to be inside but I told Henry that I've something to do.." =P
My next stop was Harbourfront counter. I had to explain to Dean Tay about Friday. After explaining, I had to get curtains. I went to Vivo twice because the colour of the curtain I got the first time wasn't that nice. It was so tiring.
After everything was settled, it was already 9.30pm. If I went for the event, I would be on my way home already... -.-" Luckily, Meifang made breakfast today. Her sandwich became my dinner for the day... =P
Reminiscing stops at |12:37:00 pm|
Monday, July 28, 2008
Weee... I'm back from the travel fair at last! There wasn't as much people as I thought would be. It was kinda boring at a point of time. So, I kept walking around. While walking around, I made a friend! Haha... He's working in the insurance line. The whole day, I'm either walking around or giving out brochures.
Since we had too much brochures, I gave them to anyone who walked pass. Actually, I shoved it to them... Heh heh...
One of the performance of the day was 3 kids performing with fire!
When it was about 5, Henry asked me whether I wanna go back first. I didn't want to because I don't wanna go back alone. =P
One of the travel agencies had mascots! Bugs Bunny, Scooby Doo and Batman made their appearance there! I wanted to take a picture with Bugs Bunny but a bit paiseh. In the end, we took pictures with Scooby Doo.
When it was about 9pm, I was a bit blur already. Henry and Clinton asked if I wanna go to the hotel room to rest. I immediately agreed because there's entertainment in the room, The TV! Haha... RK kept me company in the room. I don't think I dare to be alone in the room... Haha...
The service in the room was quite good leh.. I just have to sit on the bed and I have my tea beside me. It was also refilled when I've finished it! Haha... Since RK offered to do it, why reject? So 难得 this 大少爷 offer to do something. Haha...
In the room, I wanted to take a nap while waiting for the travel fair to end but it feels weird when there's someone beside me leh... So, I have to 忍 and read my book while waiting. This guy went to bathe!!! I also wanted to bathe but I didn't have a change of clothes... *sobz*
When the fair finally ended, the rest came back to the room to gather before leaving for dinner. It should be supper instead because it's already quite late... Halfway through, a cat came to our table!!! After I saw that cat, I dare not put my feet down. When we left, I didn't see the cat. But when we're walking to the car, it ran over my foot suddenly!! I got a shock and screamed out! So paiseh!! People around turned and looked at me... =P
Before heading back to Singapore, RK had to pump petrol and wash his car. While waiting, I got bored. I tried to kick his slippers off his foot but failed. In the end, he grabbed one of my foot, took my slippers and threw it to one corner! -.- Henry just sat there and laughed...
At the custom, my passport was with Henry. After we passed the Malaysia's custom, RK opened my passport to see my picture! Throughout the journey, I tried to snatch his passport to see his picture as revenge. Henry, again, just sat there and laughed! He didn't help me at all... =(
Back in Singapore, Henry and I took a cab back home from where RK dropped us, CCK. If I don't have to work on Monday, I would think of going to Addy's place since it's so near... But too bad... Haiz...
Reminiscing stops at |2:37:00 am|
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Am I being too easy or stupid? I've reached my limits. I've spent so much time trying to accommodate. Henry said I shouldn't care about their requests too much. But I really don't wanna come out with something that many can't agree with.
I've been warned... But I didn't listen...
Finally, today, I decided to give up. I asked Henry if we could stick to the original plan and not care about their idea. At least for a month. It's time for them to accept changes. I can't give in anymore. If not, I'll be stepped over.
忍!
Reminiscing stops at |10:24:00 pm|
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Have I done something wrong?
I guess I have to rephrase... What have I done right?
Argh!!
Reminiscing stops at |9:58:00 pm|
I'm up early! Super early... Earlier than usual... It's back to the sleepless days when I wake up in the middle of the night and can't go back to sleep. At least this time, it's closer to the time I'm supposed to wake up. =D
I was looking at some videos I took in the past. I kept laughing to myself! It was all the stupid but fun moments! Hee...
Oh yah! Saturday we watched The Dark Knight. Before meeting Addy, I went back to HarbourFront to leave my access card for Clinton. When I was back there, I was shocked by the queue! It was extremely long! I wanted to stay back to help out but I didn't. I can just borrow a polo-tee and start working but I don't feel comfy wearing a short skirt with slippers to sell packages. Don't look professional leh... Doesn't give the company a good impression also when I'm wearing slippers. So, I just left my card there and ran off guiltily.
After HarbourFront, I was off to Woodlands for the movie! The seats at town area was horrible. We had to go to some ulu place to watch.
In the cinema, I almost wanted to chop off the 3 heads in front of me! The couple sitting in front of us were sitting so upright that they gave me the feeling that they can't relax. Another guy was also blocking me with his head and some strands of hair standing up. Throughout the movie, I had to peep in between their gap.
Hmmm... Maybe they are really tall, or the person in front of them are blocking them. I should taken a bolster seat to make myself higher! Haha... =P
Halfway through the movie, I received a sms. I immediately sian half. "Please check how many pax for today when the last tour started." That was my manager. Last tour is at 5pm and that time, it was just halfway through the show! I had to set alarm to remind myself again. At 5, I called back. I didn't make my call outside because it was difficult to squeeze out. There was a pregnant lady beside me.
Conclusion of my work.. There isn't really an off-day. You always have to be on standby 24-7. Being asked to call back to workplace to check out on some matters is ok. But being called back to work means something serious had happened...
OK! Time to get ready for work! =D It's another day of maddness...
Reminiscing stops at |6:41:00 am|
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Yesterday, Wen En asked me... "Why Meihua doing a job that doesn't require brain?" I laughed at the way he phrased it. In fact, when she works, she gives me the feeling that she's constantly waiting to eat and is always eating. Haha... She agrees too.
It was Friday. By right, we're able to dress down. However, there was a V.I.P. coming into the office. I knew that but I wore jeans. Henry chased me out of office and asked me to hide at the counter until the V.I.P. left. I was happy when he said that actually. Haha.. So, I brought some work and went to Harbourfront. I was only allowed to return after lunch.. Hehe...
At the counter, I just slacked around and did some packing. I threw away whatever I don't like there. =P Seward was supposed to buy lunch for us. But he took extremely long time to get our food! I was dying in the counter at that time.
After lunch, I went back to office at last. I sat down for a while and Desmond said, "Come, let's go to Harbourfront." I was like "Huh?? I just spent my whole morning there and just came back..." On the way there, he asked me about Henry again. Seriously, I don't know what to say. He keep saying that what I said had hidden meanings. I don't hate Henry. I didn't know what to say about him.
At the counter, we walked around and decided what to do to the counter. Then he said, "next stop, Sentosa!" "Are you sure you wanna go there?? It's worse than here..." I warned him. He had second thoughts and decided not to. Haha... In the end, I was given 1 week to pack both counters.
When I went back to office again, I realised I had to go to Sentosa already. I went over, looked around again and try to decide what to do. I love Nur!!! She really wanna help me make the counter neat... Hee..
I went back to office again... I packed up a bit, read some emails, help Ben at the counter and rushed out to endorse tickets. After that, it was lesson time. I almost dozed off! I gave up and left early.
Since I was too tired, I decided to take a bus home. I waited for 45minutes but the bus 147 didn't come!!! It was then, I realised there was a notice about a change of route at the other end of the bus stop. I was super mad at that time. Why put such a small notice at one corner of the bus stop! Not many people noticed it at all and we waited like idiots there. They should at least put 1 notice at each ends.
I walked to the bus stop where there's 147. When I walked passed a bus stop, I saw that same notice again. Such a big bus stop but there's only one small little notice. The change of route was only for 2 days but proper notices have to be put up at distinctive places mah! So irritating. The person who planned this thing didn't do his homework!
Actually, I was able to reach home at 10. In the end, I reached home at 11.20pm. Haiz...
Reminiscing stops at |10:49:00 am|
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Has stressed really found me? Am I really stressed?
I kept telling myself that I'm just lost... I'm just confused.. I'm just... I dunno... Haiz..
Last weekend was horrible for me. I didn't do a good job on Friday and I kept having a bad feeling for Monday when I go for work. I kept thinking about that matter. It keep appearing in my mind. It kept torturing me...
On Monday, I always have to catch my breath. At night, it was hard to sleep. I kept waking up... =(
Did I really lose weight? I don't think so. Hidayah said I lost weight. Lilian said my face look sharper. I didn't really believe them because I don't think so. But yesterday, I realised one of the top I had used to be fitting. Now, it's kinda loose... My appetite isn't that good these days especially during lunch. I can't finish the food I bought. These few days, I keep wasting food. Hmmmm....
Am I going crazy soon?
Hopefully not...
Reminiscing stops at |12:31:00 pm|
Sunday, July 13, 2008
I was talking to someone about weak points and how we're gonna use them to attack each other.
Actually, I don't really know what my weak points are. I only know that I'm terrified of beetles. My eyes will turn teary whenever there's one flying around.
I think my greatest fear is to be unable to walk. It'll be very painful for me. I'll no longer be able to run around, cycle and do other stuff. I guess I will just breakdown and think that there's nothing else in life for me.
~*~*~*
It's 4am in the morning. I went to bed at 11pm. At about 1.30, I woke up and for no reason, I can't sleep! For a few days, this has been happening...
So, I decided to switch on my lappy to do some stuff. I saw darling Meihua online. I started chatting with her. For some reason, I started to cry out.
Haiz...
Reminiscing stops at |2:03:00 am|
Saturday, July 12, 2008
At last I've gone back to the Chinese Sensei to massage my leg again. This time, I waited 1hour!! I waited till I fell asleep. There were many people walking pass the shop but I was too tired to care about it.
When it was my turn at last, I went in for my screaming session. After screaming, I went back to office to get my camera charger. Without it, I'll have no camera to take pictures tomorrow!
So, in my shorts with a bandage around my knee, I went back. Whoever saw my bandage was surprised. I told them it's for fashion. =P
When I got to my table, I was surprised that I've a packet of biscuits on my table! Clinton said it looks like biscuits that are used during the lunar 7th month to pray. Immediately, I laughed and went to laugh at the person who gave it to me. My drawer is already full of snacks. I guess I've to start eating them. =P
Today, in the train, I don't have to snatch for seats leh! Haha... Can I bandage my leg everyday? hahaha... =P
Reminiscing stops at |8:58:00 pm|
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Seriously, I dunno how to say. How long am I gonna last? How long can I continue? The pressure is coming down on me so heavily. It got worse when it feels so tense in the office.
With another major hit, I guess I'll just breakdown.
Reminiscing stops at |11:41:00 am|
Wednesday, July 09, 2008
MY HAIR IS DROPPING!!! Too much brain cells killed... Almost everyday, I stared at the roster... How how??? Then, I began to sigh and started doing other stuff.
Why just one incident can cause such a BIG effect? Is this how powerful chain effects can be?
Then... Another thing is the SMS. Every other day, SMS go through our phones... I don't know if these SMS seem right. Then, the SMS I received this morning about the breakfast I bought surprised me. Does it have a double meaning? Or am I thinking too much..
Reminiscing stops at |10:17:00 pm|
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
070708, Monday... It was my company's D&D! Our MC was Dustbin! Oops! I mean Justin. Heh... Office closed at 1pm today. I told Vernon, "我们一点才可以回。" He became very agitated because he can only leave at 4pm!
I totally regretted going to Addy's house after work because I had to leave after 1hour! It's like going all the way there just for lunch... Haiz...
Although the event starts at 6.30pm, I was told to reach at 5pm because I have to do my hair and makeup! When I was there, Noelle and I walked around while the stylist fix Sharon's hair and makeup. Then, at 6pm, we went back to the room for the stylist to get us prepared! After I'm done, I went to the toilet to see how I look. In the end, I shocked myself! I couldn't recognise the person standing in the mirror! Was it really me??? Haha...
After the both of us were done, we rushed down to the ballroom. Henry was calling me every minute asking me where I am. His invite card was with me. That's why he's so kan qiong.
I had to borrow money from Noelle and Meifang because I forgot I had to pay the stylist! After paying, I'm left with $5 in my wallet... -.-
When I was at the ballroom, everyone couldn't recognise me! Haha... As usual, GR Ryan made fun of me and Amit. I feel so blur at the entrance of the ballroom. I can only remember taking pictures after pictures. Digiphoto guys walking around taking pictures non stop!
I forced Daniel to take a picture with me. 难得 he wear shirt and tie (and look handsome too!).. Noelle made fun of us, "哇！你们很像couple leh.." -.- Make us paiseh lor.. Her comment attracted one of the Digiphoto guys to take a picture of us... -.-"
When we're in the ballroom, we're all separated! We're not seated according to departments. For my table, including me, there were 4 FT and 5 retails. There was an obvious wall in between us because we just talked among ourselves. For me, I kept talking to Ming Zheng..
Michelle and I
Ming Zheng and Vernon
Me, Royston, Felicia and Noelle.. I dunno why Noelle is looking at the other camera when the person holding my camera said he's taking 1st... -.-
Desmond, Meifang, me and Steven! I dunno why Desmond has that face. Steven looks practically the same in every pictures... Kat, IT Ryan and Me! During work, Ryan will have a bad feeling whenever I go to his seat and smile at him... =P
For one of the games, a rep from our table had to go on stage to collect a prize. But to get the prize, the rep had to do a very hot, sexy dance. Ming Zheng, who was our rep, went on stage and started taking off his shirt! -.- OMG! I dunno watz this boy is thinking...
Then, it was time for the imitation contest! Our department was imitating the 881! Wow! They look SO PRO!! In the end, we're the champion!!! YEAH!! For the lucky draw, lady luck wasn't with me. I didn't win anything!! *sobz*
After everything, I wanted to leave because the next day is a working day. After taking pictures here and there, I told someone that I wanna leave. But photo taking is still going on. I was smiling here and there. I thought my face muscles might cramp!
That's me and Joel, one of the Part Time Tour Host. Although it's the first time we meet each other, I suan-ed him. =P I threatened to remove his name from the list if he don't come back to work soon. =P Abusing my authority again... Haha...
In the end, I sat down with IT Ryan and we had some drinks. We sat there chatting. Royston came out of nowhere and gave me a shock. I almost screamed!! Lucky... Then, I kept asking him about what he told me. I still can't believe who his auntie is. Although what he told me is true, I still can't believe it...
Suddenly, I remembered I don't have enough money to take cab home! I asked around if there's any ATMs. Nobody knows.. This Royston lend me $50! Wah... Feels like a brother! Cannot say feels like a father giving daughter pocket money because he's too young to be my father. =P But I keep calling him uncle because he's older than me.. =P
I don't know how many times I said "bye, I'm going off.." From 11plus till 1plus, I'm still there! I only left at around 1.30pm. Zzzz...
Reminiscing stops at |10:33:00 pm|
Thursday, July 03, 2008
One day, I took the SkyRide with Emblos (What an unique name!).
The moment we left the station, he opened his umbrella. I was shocked and surprised by his action! I moved away from him and asked him to close it. Very paiseh leh... No rain, no sun but use umbrella on SkyRide.. The others saw my actions and kept laughing at him. Haha...
Till now, I still hate to take SkyRide alone when it's dark. So, everytime I'll run to Beach Station to endorse my tickets and run back to SkyRide, hoping that the sky won't be too dark...
Ok lah! I'm scared to take SkyRide alone when it's dark lah! =P
But 辛苦 leh... Muz wear heels and run up and down the slope... =(
