STORIES...
Sunday, October 31, 2004
Hidden Options of your com..! hee...
Reminiscing stops at |10:14:00 am|
Saturday, October 30, 2004
Another one before I get ready 2 leave the hse...
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Do not believe such lies
Told to you by people
Do not fear this life
You have the power to create it
People will come and leave
Some of them will stay
The ones you are calling your friends
Treasure them, they too can go away
There is no need to fear tomorrow
Taking control in our own hands
We are the ones creating this world
Starting with things in our own minds
~Angel With Dark Wings~
Reminiscing stops at |8:42:00 am|
Yeah!! At last I can read some of Her works!!
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It has been such a long time
Since the last time i spoke to you
You might not know it, but all that time
I was lonelly. i wish you could be here.
This feeling of being abdoned
It has been an eternity
Hurting inside, i don't know why
Why am i feeling it, i shouldn't.
It is my own fault, i shouldn't have...
I shouldn't have came so close to you
Too close... and now you are taking over me
Always inside my mind.. almost a part of it
I have to talk to you,
To feel like me. to be. to live.
But hell.. why should i even tell you
This all.. it makes me feel so weak
... and alone.
~Angel With Dark Wings~
Reminiscing stops at |8:01:00 am|
Friday, October 29, 2004
Toro's so CUTE!! hahaha... Cute Toro!! So cute!! hahaha.. Show start alr!! Toro!!
Reminiscing stops at |9:31:00 pm|
Finished reading thru HRM notes alr!! yeah!! My mom asked me 2 go CP get some stuff for her... She sae,"After finish studying, you go out walk walk lah... Shun bian help me collect something fm CP." Wah! My mom ask me go out instead of staying @ home to study!
Slept fm 2-4... Had tt weird weird dream... woke up feeling hungry... Went to the kitchen to have my Kuay Teow... MY MOM ATE IT!!! I started making lots n lots of noise until I cannot tahan... Went outside 2 grab something...
Wanted to go for pasta todae... But lazy 2 go out... haiz... PASTA!! I MISS U!!! haha...
Reminiscing stops at |4:39:00 pm|
Thursday, October 28, 2004
1 more to go! yeah!!
Last paper: Mon HRM... After tt, I'm gonna be tortured... haiz...
ITT... hahaha!! I spotted one long list of qns... a few came out!! wow!! But I forgot some points.. *sob*
As usual, I left before the paper ended... Michelle n I went off together again!! haha... So qiao... FMA we also leave together... hmmm... Wat abt HRM?? haha...
Reached home... Wanted to use com for the whole afternoon... But bro was using... so After lunch, watched Love Me If You Dare... Slept for 2hrs+ after tt...
Wanted to study a bit of HRM... Took out my notes n tb, flip to Legislation... walked abt in my room... went 2 peep if bro's still using the com... went back to my room... looked for my cds... went to the living room to find my cds... went back to my room... sat down in front of my table... closed my tb... flip thru my notes again... read the 1st two slides... went to peep @ the com again... went back to my room... switch off the table lamp... switched off the radio... went to the com... sat down... dun wanna leave le... haiz... ahhh!!! I can't seem to start studying...
Tml I'm going for pasta!! 3 cheers!! hehe... After tt really gotta study le...
Reminiscing stops at |7:03:00 pm|
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
My goodness!!! I tot ITT's on Fri... It's on Thurs!! *sob* I juz keep dozing off when I study ITT... Study 2hrs, sleep 1hr... haiz...
Reminiscing stops at |1:59:00 pm|
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
Ng MeiHua!!! My toe hurts like hell u noe!!!
This woman kicked my toe... Felt pain after a while... It was bleeding!!
Now it still hurts!! Guess it's my retribution of hitting her wif my file todae... haiz.. *sob*
Reminiscing stops at |9:20:00 pm|
It's 10am now... 2hrs ago, I was still rolling on my bed... 1hr ago, I drag myself out of bed... 30mins ago, I had breakfast... Now, I'm in front of the com, unwilling 2 leave...
8hrs later, nightmare! FMA!! Praying hard that this yr's paper will follow the trend... Praying hard that I will remember those ratios... Praying hard that I won't freak out n forget everything...
I needa head back 2 those notes... But my body n mind doesn't seem 2 coordinate... So... Here I am... sitting in front of the com, playing games... haiz...
Reminiscing stops at |10:01:00 am|
Sunday, October 24, 2004
OH NO!!! I drop my rosin!!! *sob* now it's broken into pieces!! *sob*
I wanted 2 tune my violin... wonder y todae it seems so hard 2 tune...wanted 2 try practicing cuz my violin seems like it's gonna cry if I dun touch it.. haha.. sat on the chair, rub some rosin onto the bow.. it slipped off fm my hands n landed onto the foor!! ahhh!!! cannot use le!! I think... *sob* muz go buy new one... but lazy 2 go get it... this will not happen if i had not listened 2 my itchy hands and continue studying!!
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After exams I shall continue my quest wif all my V.C. Andrews books and go get more comics also... Gotta see more Chinese words b4 I really forget how 2 write my wonderful name!!
Reminiscing stops at |7:22:00 pm|
Saturday, October 23, 2004
Oh no!! I juz realised that I've forgotten how 2 write those chinese words except 4 my sweet name!! *sob* Even those simple words!! When I asked Xiusi how 2 write, she n Nini laf @ me!! *sob* Juz happen 2 hav short term brain dead due to overloading of ITT n the disappointment fm French... *sob* They very bad!! tt dae laf @ me.. todae also laf @ me..!! *sob*
Reminiscing stops at |10:13:00 pm|
Thursday, October 21, 2004
They bully my dream!!
I was watching The Champion on Ch8. After I saw a scene, I told Nini... "I wanna hav my wedding ceremony @ Dolphin Lagoon... Wedding dinner @ Underwater World...!"
Nini said...
"imagine.. ppl sitting there, happily..
waiting to c the newly weds.. den happily cheering, eating, drinking..
and suddenly dot dot dot... den ppl think "how come got water dropping on my food?", or rather "how come my drinks suddenly so full? i din c any waitress helping me to refill leh"
den.. u'll hear "wah biang!! raining liao loh! RUN RUN RUN!!!! FASTER" den push here push there... disaster sia!"
She bully me!! Not onli her!! The rest also!!
Adel, Xiusi, Meihua, Huiwen, Wailing n CherYe laf @ it... Collin thinks I'm too free n sae got shelter... These ppl ah... SO BAD!!! Share wif them, they like this... grr..!!
Reminiscing stops at |11:20:00 pm|
Molly Smiles
JESSE SPENCER
Daddy's little girl paints the world with her magic wand
Daddy's little child breathes new life to the morning time for me
Though we're apart, her thoughts follow me
When I come home, Molly smiles with the dawn
Molly smiles, and she radiates the glow around her halo
When she plays, Molly smiles
On a summer day, Molly smiles
A new day, Molly smiles
Daddy's little girl ties a ribbon around my heart
Daddy's little child waves goodbye to the ocean tide that sweeps me
Though we're apart, she's a part of me
Molly smiles with the dawn
Molly smiles and she radiates the glow around her halo
When she plays, Molly smiles
On a summer day, Molly smiles
A new day, Molly smiles
When I come home, Molly smiles with the dawn
Molly smiles and she radiates the glow around her halo
When she plays, Molly smiles
On a summer day, Molly smiles
A new day, Molly smiles
When the days have gone grey,
Nothing's wrong when Molly smiles
Reminiscing stops at |8:01:00 pm|
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
"An eye for an eye" I wanted to do the same.. I almost wanted to do it... But since I hate it when elle does that, why muz I do the same to get my revenge? I'll be doing whatever elle did to me. I'll be like elle... I dun wan!! But... haiz...
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Had a meal @ Ichiban Boshi!! Eat until very full!! Shiok! The soft shell crab quite nice!! All plates $1.90++ Another sushi place added 2 my list!! hahaha...!!!
This week's School Belle & The Beau fm SP...!! Adel sae muz watch... My mom ask me... "u not inside ah?" wahahahah....!!! my onli response was... "siao" hahaha...:p
The show was like... sianz... Onli the gals were like the type tt can make it... The guys were like... er... Big Big Eyes n No.12 are sooo much better!!! Why they not chosen?? so wasted...!!! haiz... hahaha...
I was watching Get Real + Charmed @ 830pm... @ 9, I was watching Charmed + The Champion... so busy!! miss quite some parts of Charmed!! Why Chris agreed 2 go back 2 the future wif Bianca? Wat happened before that? Why Wyatt turned evil?? *sob* Toro nv appear for the 1st episode!! *sob sob*
Ahhh... Big Big Eyes' really soooo much better than them... No. 12 also...!! haiz...
Reminiscing stops at |10:15:00 pm|
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
Many thoughts flowing in my tiny brain... Many thoughts flooding my tiny brain... Many thoughts I wish to say, but juz couldn't force them out...
Many things happening these days... Many things disturbing me... Many things I kept thinking, but still, I couldn't solve them...
Many times I tried... Many times I didn't... Many times I wanted to do it, I juz couldn't bring out my courage...
Those times that were lost... Those times that I've missed... Those were the days, where I didn't cherish them well...
Wishing to turn back time... Wishing that they'll all return... Wishing they didn't exisit, for I'm a little regretting now...
Time is passing by... Every minute has gone by... I'm still here, left to swim or sink...
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"y u always so bz..."
Why ppl always ask me this?? I wanna keep myself busy... I wanna keep my mind occupied so I won't think of those rubbish stuff... I dun wanna waste my time thinking of those useless things... haiz...
Reminiscing stops at |10:25:00 pm|
Monday, October 18, 2004
Desiderata
Go placidly amid the noise and the haste
And remember what peace there may be silence.
As far as possible without surrender, be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly and listen to others,
Even the dull and ignorant; they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons; they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others you may become vain or bitter, for always there will b greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your career, however humble;
It is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs,
For the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is.
Many persons strive for high ideals
And everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself.
Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
For in the face of all aridity and disappointment
It is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years,
Gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline be gentle with yourself.
You are my child of the universe no less than the tress and the stars.
You have a right to be here.
And whether it is clear to you or not,
No doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God,
Whatever you conceive him to be,
And whatever your labours and aspirations in the noisy confusion of life,
Keep peace with your soul.
With all its sham and drudgery and broken dreams
It is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.
- Les Crane -
Reminiscing stops at |9:18:00 am|
Saturday, October 16, 2004
Ahhh!!! The ulcer is killing me!! Everyone's telling me 2 put salt.. I tried 2 avoid tt.. Last nite I put a bit.. I was jumping ard the hse after tt! It's not getting any better!! This is the worst ulcer ever!!
Went 2 Pacific Coffee 2 study again.. Tried Esprit Lemon Lime.. It's sparkling water.. Doesn't taste different leh.. Xiusi tried 2 call me but I didn't hear... I juz happened 2 look up when she called, "Angel!" hahaha!!!
Finished reading everything on Sales Mgt... hmmm... let me see... watever I've read... ... ... DOESN'T GO IN!! haiz... sian.. next tues SSM... Next Sat French... After tt, exams!! Nightmares!! ahhhh....!!! haha...
Reminiscing stops at |8:24:00 pm|
Friday, October 15, 2004
RWPS... TQM... all over le!! This coming tues SSM... I still dun understand y muz I study sales. Mayb I noe y but I juz dun wanna take tt module. Next sem MR... I dun like Mktg!! Can I get exemption?? haiz...
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My mom found out!! I hid the the receipt alr. I'm still wondering where she found it. This morning, my mom asked how much I spend 4 my clothes. I dare not sae. So she juz gimme $50. When I reached home, she asked if I really spent $200+ on those clothes. I was shocked. I onli asked, "how u noe?" haiz... Nth can escape my mom's eyes... I guess I've gotta work n work 2 get back my $255.
I'm really going 2 HK le!! Happy n scared. Happy cuz it's the 1st time going holiday wif my frenz! w/o my parents or any relatives. Scared cuz it's the 1st time w/o my parents or relatives ard. If not enough money, dunno who'll pay 4 me 1st. Also scared scarli got conflicts. hmmm... mayb we'll b too bz playing n enjoying myself to hav conflicts ba... $500 for HK...
I really gotta work... can't wait 4 14nov! Hari Raya! going 2 Sanur work! Double Pay! $100!! tt's wat I got tt time. I'm so broke! *sob*
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Ahh!!! My little finger hurts!! cannot use it 2 type 4 todae... pain!!
Reminiscing stops at |7:08:00 pm|
Monday, October 11, 2004
Everything's not running on the right track. Everything are not going the way it's supposed to.
Greatest foe for now is time. It's the giant enemy that I have to fight. I have to perserve till the end. I want to see the results.
I'm very tired. I'm tired of thinking of those things. I'm tired of writing reports. I'm tired of doing ppt. I'm tired of presenting. I'm tired of doing anything but juz dream my way away. I'm tired of being the character of my story. How I wish I could switch roles. But it's impossible.
I'm tired of holding that mask. It's too heavy. It's getting heavier every second. How long more? How long more before it's too heavy for me?
Is there a someone that I can pour all those bitterness in my heart to? When I tot I found my mt, the mt where I can stand up tall w/o worries, it juz faded off. It juz seemed to disappear.
What am I afraid of? People running away? People leaving me? The eyes they used on me? Or issit myself?
Mayb my worst enemy is myself afterall...
Reminiscing stops at |8:59:00 pm|
Sunday, October 10, 2004
They were playing football at my place, at my house... They were using the football n... MY VOLLEYBALL!! *heartache* They were kicking my volleyball... It's not supposed to be used on the feet. It's mainly for the hands... for the arms... not the feet. *sob*
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"No orange juice for u!"
AHHH!! My mother is torturing me!! OJ for father, OJ for her, NONE for me! She dun let me drink! *sob*
"No. You can't drink."
Ahhh!! Why i can't drink!! nth's wrong mah... It's over liao... so I can drink mah... *sob*
Reminiscing stops at |10:19:00 am|
Saturday, October 09, 2004
Once Upon a Broken Heart
THE BEU SISTERS
Once upon a broken heart
I was walking alone in the dark
Looking for a way to start again
What I wouldn't give for a friend
There was no love in my life
There was no light in my eyes
All the tears that I had cried and cried
Seemed like they'd never end
And I never believed fairytales came true
But now I know that they really do
Now that I found you, now that I'm here with you
Just look at the sunshine, and you
Showed me a world
That I'd never seen
I woke up and fell into this dream
Happily ever after just took time
Once upon this broken heart of mine
Long ago and far away
I could never dream of the day
That your love would come my way and stay
And sweep me away and I
Never believed fairytales came true
But now I know that they really do
Now that I found you, now that I'm here with you
Just look at the sunshine, and you
Showed me a world
That I'd never seen
I woke up and fell into this dream
Happily ever after just took time
Once upon this broken heart of mine
this is the way a fairytale feels
This is the way I know it's real
'Cause this is the way a broken heart heals
And I never believed fairytales came true
But now I know that they really do
Now that I found you, now that I'm here with you
Just look at the sunshine, and you
Showed me a world
That I'd never seen
I woke up and fell into this dream
Happily ever after just took time
Once upon this broken heart of mine
Reminiscing stops at |9:47:00 pm|
Thursday, October 07, 2004
Ahhh!! Oh No!! Die le!! Stomach pain!! Stomach Cancer!! tt's m'my's worst fear... Everytime I've to sae "rubbish". Told her so many times liao... Tan sae nth's wrong. Juz nth too spicy, no ice cream, so sour stuff... Nth's wrong!!
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So tired. Wanna slp.
Wanna slp as long as Sleeping Beauty. Hoping there's a fairy godmother like Cinderella's. Haiz... thinking too much abt fairy tales le...
Reports n ppt are feeding on my blood! I dun wanna do those reports! They're eating up by precious brain cells! I'm alr short of brain cells u noe... *sob*
Was trying 2 do SSM report during break. Booked a com @ T22510-R5 but someone's still using my com! *sob* Made advance booking @ lib. I wanted 2 avoid tt place cuz it's very noisy... But no choice...
The guys beside me very inconsiderate! A bag was @ my area. I muz siam one side. Another guy came, dump his file on the table, covering my notes! So rude!
So pissed off by the noise... So pissed off by the guys... haiz...
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RENA!! QIU QIU!! GOH HUILIN!! AH LAU!! SJC!!
I miss those days where we played basketball... although I really put the naughty ball in. I miss those PE lessons where we learn 2 play street soccer... I remember Shan n I were chasing n snatching the poor ball. I missed those visits @ the lib... we played more than study... ran abt wif the bean bags, squashing each other wif it... Mrs heng providing some snacks, allow us 2 use the small room. I miss those night studies where all of us played more than we're supposed 2 study. I really miss those days where I hav 2 wear our uniform! Now it's too short 4 me le(I've grown taller!! hehe...). I miss those days where we 'fought' outside our classroom... I tore ur uniform... haha... I miss Hillside Drive... I miss IJ life!!
Reminiscing stops at |6:36:00 pm|
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
Yesterdae there's this guy of ACS guys in the train... got 1 ah pek standing beside me... nobody gave him seats... Another ah pek n ah ma board the train. The two of them were looking 4 a seat but no one volunteered. @ one stop, someone alight. So there's an empty seat. Ah pek ask ah ma wanna sit or not... The ACS boy stand beside the ah pek. THEN HE SAT DOWN!!! SHAMELESS!!! WAT A BRAT!! KIDS THIS DAYS...!!! %#&%(&@*&%&@
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Went to Centrepoint 2 help m'my collect things again. Didn't stay 2 chat cuz saw tt woman. See her spoil my mood onli... Went over 2 Taka lib 2 study. Passed Sanur, saw Nicolas! I quickly SIAM!! hahaha... as if he can see me... hahaha... The lib's cafe was packed!! *sob* Me decided 2 make my way back home... Almost hit the MRT door when I alight... Somehow yawned n lost my balance... :p
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I saw this auntie gave the tissue ah ma $10. She dun wan 2 take her tissue. But the ah ma like dun wanna accept. People like that auntie are hard to find. The Uncle in front of me doesn't even wanna look at ah ma! So rude! She's more senior leh! haiz...
Reminiscing stops at |7:33:00 pm|
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
I'm NOT going swimming alone again!! unless tt dae I'm not thinking str...
I wanna hav a relaxing dae @ the pool... Swim a few laps, soak myself in the dirty pool... but... *sob*
Qiu Qiu!!! U nv come save me!! *sob*
Reminiscing stops at |6:27:00 pm|
Sunday, October 03, 2004
I was chatting wif Nini... suddenly, I said,"now then I realised my fren quite good looking..." Nini's reaction was (-.-')... wahahaha!!! hmmmm... the eyes not as nice as Big Big Eyes'... but overall look quite nice... mayb cuz of the dimple smile... hehe... ok! now I not onli wan Big Big Eyes' eye, I also wan that smile! hahaha.... me siao liao...
I was hugging my HuXuGou, watching tv... watching Toro!!! He's da best! Lin JunJie n Pan WeiBo also one of da best! hehe... but i was thinking... Y Toro sing muz open his leg so wide?? hmmm... *wondering*
Tml ITT Presentation... I nv practice... Planning 2 tok crap there... Wish me luck!~*
My mom said sth suddenly... It made me remember my grandma... My eyes were cloudy... But they didn't flow out... My grandma was feeling so much pain till her last breath. No one was able to help her take away her pain. She had packets n packets of medicine. We could onli take care of her, help her ease her pain. She was skin n bones the last time I saw her. She looked totally different from before. It really felt painful. It felt worse when you see her move around. She needed someone 2 help her ard. My auntie got her a wheelchair. She was either on her wheelchair or her bed. It was a nightmare for me, for us. A nightmare that we couldn't wake up from. I noe I'm selfish! But I really want them back! I wanna call them again! I'm really afraid I'll forget how they look. I dun wanna forget them! I really... How I wish those incidents were just a nightmare and disappear when I wake up. But reality fails me. I had to face the truth in front of me no matter what.
A D.J. once said,"Your grandma just went to a better place..." I guessed that's true. Cuz she said she saw my grandpa on her death bed...
Reminiscing stops at |8:55:00 pm|
Friday, October 01, 2004
SSM Grp Project
1. 26/8 Interim Discussion
2. 31/8 Interim Editing
3. 3/9 Interim Submission
4. 10/9 Report Discussion
5. 27/9 Report Editing
6. 29/9 Report Editing
7. 1/10 Report Editing
8. 1/10 Report Submission
9. 6/10 Presentation Preparation
10. 13/10 Presentation
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I think I saw my bro...! I think I didn't see my bro...! I dunno the person I saw is my bro or not...! haha... I'm such a
GREAT sista!! hehe...
Fm the back view, he looked like my bro... But his bag looks girlish too me... Although it's an uni-sex bag...
I had 2 sacrifice watching tv 2 study FMA...ah BOOn said the Ah Zhi show today last 2nd episode... cannot watch...!! *sob* I complained 2 my mom... She asked me 2 watch myself... -.-" Zhi wanna watch Ah Zhi!! haha...
Ahhh!!! My throat's hurting again!! *sob*
Watz left:
1. ITT Report Submission & Presentation (4/10)
2. RWPS Report Submission
3. SSM Presentation (13/10)
4. RWPS Presentation (12 or 15/10)
5. FMA Exam (26/10)
6. ITT Exam (28/10)
7. HRM Exam (1/11)
Did I miss out anything?? hmmm...
Reminiscing stops at |9:27:00 pm|
